Some excerpts *with apologies*:
My cousin Eduardo came to Louveciennes yesterday. We talked for six hours. He reached the conclusion I had come to also: that I need an older mind, a father, a man stronger than me, a lover who will lead me in love, because all the rest is too much a self-created thing. The impetus to grow and live intensely is so powerful in me I cannot resist it. I will work, I will love my husband, but I will fulfill myself.
At the same time I concede to myself that he knows the technique of kissing better than anyone I've met. His gestures never miss their aim, no kiss ever goes astray. His hands are deft. My curiosity for sensuality is stirred. I have always been tempted by unknown pleasures. He has, like me, a sense of smell. I let him inhale me, then I slip away. Finally I lie still on the couch, but when his desire grows, I try to escape. Too late.
Flipping through the book I'm finding little underlinings that I left years ago, not ALL the good bits *tsk*. I also find that almost every paragraph is quotable. This is a great book and followed by further unexpurgated journals. One of the lines I underlined at the time is this:
When he puts his arms around me, I think he is amusing himself with an overintense and ridiculous little woman.
All of my underlinings are in red pen and it looks like I read the book in one or two sittings because the lines and pen colour never vary. I've never seen the movie, but I originally read the movie cover version (bottom). The top cover is the newely released edition. It looks beautiful, but the girl is no Anais.
For the older reader of course.